Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Moving


So.... We are moving. I never really thought it would happen, but apparently it is (I think it kind of hit me after I realized that 3/4 of our stuff is now in boxes). Our destination is Idaho-- Boise area, to be specific. We leave in a week. Joe is happy. He's wanted to live there since before we got married. After getting laid off and not being able to find a job here in Phoenix, he found one there quite quickly. Maybe it's where we are supposed to be? He thinks so. I always thought my boys would be Arizona boys.... not potato farm boys.... I am sad. I'm leaving my family and everything I've ever known behind. I'm leaving my beloved heat, which Joe refers to as Hell (just as I refer to Idaho as "Hell frozen over"). I can no longer wear flip-flops year-round. I can't call Mom up at a few hours notice to watch my kids for an hour or two. I won't be around when my sister starts Junior High and High School and starts dating boys that I won't meet to be able to approve of. I'm leaving behind a nephew and a niece, as well, who've I've watched grow and mature since their births. We'll be totally on our own, without my parents to help us (not financially, but in many other ways), and without the comfort of knowing they're right there when we need them. My kids will rarely see their grandparents. I'm sad.
BUT... maybe this is the Lord's plan for me and my family. I must put aside my sadness and feelings of negativity. My husband does have the right to receive inspiration for our family. Heavenly Father HAS blessed him with a job to support us. As much as I want to, I cannot know ahead of time what will happen there and why it is good for us. Maybe I will grow as a person, and my kids might be safer. Maybe we should be there to help someone else. I don't know the reason, but I must hold onto something, and thinking about these things makes me feel better about it all. I must sound like the hugest Daddy's Girl, as I know many, MANY people live far from their families, but I guess I never considered I might be one of them. To all of you who do live far from your families, you are strong, strong people. May I one day be like you.....

13 comments:

Joe said...

I hope you know that I love you, more than you will know. I want for the happiness of my little family. I hope that above all that these blind steps we take together prove to be something great. I know they will. Great things happen with time. I am scared too, I hope you know that. I am scared, and pray everyday still that the answers I received are from Heavenly Father and not from my own desires. I pray that those answers that I felt will shine through in the steps we take to move. I would hate to bring sadness to you, and hope that we will see God's design soon enough. I hope that you know that I am here, with you, no matter where here is. Be it Hell, or Hell frozen over, I am here. It is still hard for me to grasp that God would even answer my prayers, I am not the best servant, I have too many faults, but I figure he listens to the lowliest of the low so he must listen to me too. I pray that you will be happy, that you will still love me even though I have drug you away from your "home". You are My Beth. I love you.

The Hulls said...

Boise, ID is a great place to raise a family! I think that after the initial shocks of being in such a new place, you'll find you like living there. My parents and two of my sisters (Chelsea & Hub and Carrie & Hub & Baby) live in the Boise area too. The people are nice, there are a lot of members of the church there and I go there to visit family occasionally! What better place to move than somewhere where I can visit!! :) Good luck with the move. I do know that that drive can be killer with kiddos! Just in case: My folks 208-288-0591, Chelsea 208-559-6929, Carrie 208-761-4036

Bethany said...

Thanks, Cami!

I love you, Joe:)

Lisl and Stephen said...

You'll be closer to me, not like I'll be next door. You'll love it. Moving up here was a scary adventure, we didn't know anyone, or have family, but we did it. We have loved it ever since. Its been 2 years now. We're used to having family far away since we are both the youngest in our families so everyone was far away before we even got out of the house. Its just how things are, so in a few years it'll be the norm in your family. Your parents will have to start traveling to visit grandkids.

Brent and Val said...

Hey Bethany, I think that you will like Boise, my sister Jessica and her husband live there as well as did my parents for the past 2 years.

abby said...

wow! it will be a great adventure for you. and you may end up back in arizona someday. you never know. my grandma and aunt live there. so we'll come say hi when we're up! as far as living away from family...it's hard, but you just get used to it.

Simple Things said...

I'm sorry that this is so hard for you. I hope that everything goes well and that you like it there. AS others have said my cousin also lives near Boise in Nampa. So it sounds like you can at least meet a few people that know those in Arizona. Good luck!

Kellie Branson said...

Hi, I saw your blog online. I know moving is scary but I live in Boise and I hope you will love it here. There are lots of activities and things to do with your kids. I hope you will feel welcome. I have been the marketing director at Boise State's Selland College for 20 years and I have fallen in love with the people and the city. Your kids will love the snow here!
Best Wishes to You.

MOORE FAMILY said...

It is hard to leave what you have known your whole life. Leave the family, but it does get easier to move away. When you get to see your family you feel they are even more important to you. It is fun when you get to meet new people and see new things. Life will be great I know you will do well with the move. You are a great person and everyone will love you. And, of course you are a lot closer to me. I will get to see you more often. You will be blessed in ways you don't even know now. Good luck packing and moving and once you get your new house I will come help you move in.

James and Chelsea said...

Cheer up I LOVE BOISE! You can be my friend! I have lived here almost 10 years and I love it. It is a great place to raise a family and in time you'll love it too. I promise. Let me know when you get here and we can get together. I'll show you around!! Think happy thoughts!

James and Chelsea said...

Hey Bethany! We actually live in Kuna which is about 30 minutes from Caldwell but I work in Nampa which is even closer. Email me and maybe we can get together soon. cjbriner@gmail.com

Earthmama said...

Beth, you last post sounded so sad! I am sorry you are sad about moving. I'll be happy to have all of you closer. If you are like my kids, they wear their flip-flops all year around. (No one said they had common sense!) October is my favorite month. You may enjoy having 4 seasons. Hang in there and call me if you need anything. I will be in Boise at the end of the month. Lets catch up. Hugs to you, Joe, and the boys.

Brooke said...

Like all the other commentors... I have family in Boise too! Most of my husband's family lives in the area and we're considering moving there too next year. It is a WONDERFUL place for families. That is the only reason I am willing to live there over AZ. I have always lived away from family since college and it has it's ups and downs. Overall I have grown a lot and been able to enjoy my family on vacations. Good luck with the move. Sounds like you have a great husband to take care of you.